So far away...doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore...

Yuck...I am feeling pretty wretched today...I few days ago I had a bit of a sore throat which has since developed into a full fledged, body wrackin', phlegm bubblin' hack of a cough. It feels as bad as it sounds and it sounds awful! My lungs hurt... D:

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The other night I had the strangest dream. I don't remember the whole thing, but I was on a bicycle trip with some friends [strange as I do not bicycle] and we stopped for a bit. I went and got a drink somewhere [like a bar or something] which is also strange as I do not drink. For some reason that one drink [maybe I had more without realising?] got me incredibly drunk, so that the room started spinning and whatnot and I had difficulties standing. All this time I am trying to will myself sober because, you know, I had to bicycle! My friends came and were like, "Are you drunk??" and my answer, of course, was "No! I'm not drunk!" and started trying to be sober even harder, but it wasn't working. And then I dropped my Chanel sunglasses [don't ask me why I was holding them] on the pavement, and they got really scratched. This caused me to start freaking out about that because I couldn't fix it and I was hyperventilating because I had two problems: I was so sloshed I could hardly stand up and I needed to bicycle, and my Chanel sunnies were ruined. I woke up going, 'That was weird and then went about my day.

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Tonight is Dani's birthday party! I'm gonna take the bus down to SMaV this evening at 5 o'clock. This will be the first time I'll see my first family [besides Dani] or even be in SMaV since I moved! In December! I wonder if it'll be kind of awkward because now I know that they hate me. But I don't know if they know I know. -Whatever- It is gonna be a party...in the garage, probably...it's not like I am going to have to just sit there for hours and be uncomfortable!

I had noooo idea what to get Dani [and Grazia...I missed her birthday in Feb] and so I ended up settling on these My Little Pony shower soap things [they are shaped like My Little Ponys but you pull off the head and it's a bottle of shower soap...snazzy!] and glitter heart headbands. I don't really have anything to wrap them in but whatever...I hope that they at least pretend to like them!!

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Maybe not tonight [because I am going to be gone] but soon I have to call Giuseppina and see what the huck is up with my future family situation. Up until today the most information I have had is Vale saying that I maybe probably will have to move because she is going to have to study mad hard for the big college test [which is after school gets out]. So I have been hoping I get to stay but was figuring on moving maybe mid to late May, even though that would give me not too much time wherever I end up.

However, today I was talking to Prof. Miano, and she asked me when I was moving to my new host family in Napoli. If I was a cartoon character this is when the huge question marks would start popping up over my head. "At the end of this month?" she asked. Cue eyeballs boinging and brain fizzing. Keeping a [somewhat] calm manner, I responded that I had not heard anything official from anyone, not Giuseppina, not anyone from B3C in Milan or ASS3 in the US, about changing families, that all I knew is that I might at some point.

So yeah, I fer sure need to talk to Giuseppina and see what I can find out. I don't want to move!!! I am soooo happy with this family, and even if I do have to leave them I don't want to move to Napoli! Though yes, it has loads to recommend it [actual city, vicinity to ocean, real birthplace of the pizza, high rate of Mafia-related violence, etc etc], I don't really want to leave this area. Yes, I constantly bad mouth it and complain, I know, but I am in a pretty good situation here, I have friends, I am finally getting settled and learning stuff in school, I know my way around the town and whatnot! Blahhh!

Maybe Miano doesn't know what the bejeezus she's talking about and I either don't have to move at all [hope hope hope!] or I can stay in Maddz. I dunno, though...I don't think there are any more host families around here o.O Dammit! Partly why I signed up for this particular program is so that I wouldn't have to go through this crap!! I think, at the end of this "experience" I am going to write up a proper post explaining exactly why you should not utilize this program if you would like to do a student exchange in Italy. Because it is necessary.

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Well, I should probably get a move on...class will start soon!

Wishing for stagnancy,
Bee Electric

P.S. It is raining so hard here you would not believe!! It is also thunderin' pretty heavily. Only everyone has the windows open because it is so warm! Italy is freakin' weird. OK bye bye now. xoxo B

How'z ya bin?

Hey Kidz...

I've been somewhat better...by which I mean I haven't been roxin' a fever or anything...I slept all night and woke up this mornin' between 11:30 and 12 going "OMG WHERE'S MY PURSE?!?!?!" ['cause, in my dream, I had left it somewheres in the White House...yeah, that's right, they let me in]

I still am mad tired lots of the time and feel a lil' weak [prolly a side effect of the fact that I wasn't eatin' much for the past 4 dayz...] and kinda sore from staying in bed all day...spesh my rib cage and solar plexus...ouchie!!

And I have yet to take a shower so I rexon I'm still a bit stinkster...vabbè I'll take one 2nite...maybez go to school 2moz but I don't know. Haven't been to school since Sat which has been quite nice...apart from the fact that I was sick through 2 non school days [Sunday and Tuesday] and therefore couldn't enjoy them...

OK well I'm off to go lounge in my bed, read UK Elle, and watch The Lucy Show on my laptop...

Catch yaz later....
Bee Electric

P.S. Current weather: Cold, gray, windy, and rainy.
Current listening: M.I.A. - Sunshowers. I wish.

P.P.S. Was gonna call my parents after I finished thizZz...but then though about it; what would I say? "Hi, Mommmy, my ribz hurt....durrrr" So I decided, m'kay, no kthnx. Soz Mummerz...I'll call you some time else. Or you could call me. -whatever-

Che cazzo?

Gah! One thing you get used to with Mac computers is that they don't get effin' viruses all the time! That and they don't get messed up as much. So yeh, our computer at home is all wonkified! At first we thought it was 'cause the plug got pulled (my mom didn't know how to turn it off...I had left it on to download -oops-), but it quickly became apparent that that wasn't the problem. What it was doing was starting up, displaying an error notification window, and then, after a few minutes, restarting. Not very nice of it!! We thought that maybe it was a virus, but a Virus check scan of the computer came up with "no threats found". Okay. Then I tried clicking the "send error report" or whatever button (up until then we had been clicking "non inviare"), and it took me to the Windows page, where it said that there was a Stop Interrupt Error in the Video drive or something, and the best way to fix it was to download the most up to date drivers. So I tried that, but I think it wouldn't let me (stupid punks, putting their page in Italian), 'cause the version of Windows isn't authentic. Fuuuuuudge. After doing some more reasearch online today, I have pretty much found that the only way to fix it is the thing I can't do. CAN ANYBODY HELPIFY ME?? We might have to take it in to get fixed, but hopefully doing that will not require reformattation...the only thing that I have on there is some music or whatever so's it's not that big of a deal for me, but Vale's got all her files and what not. AND MY PUTRID BROTHER DID NOT PICK UP HIS PHONE FOR LIKE 7 HOURS SO HE COULDN'T HELP ME!! Thanks a million, bro. Oh, btw, the error code we kept getting is "STOP 0x0000008E". Grrrrah.

The (kind of) upside of not having a working, internet-enabled computer in my room is I actually went to bed at a (semi)reasonable hour last night! But when I did go to bed I had the strangest dream...I don't remember the beginning, but where my memory starts I had signed up for the Army. I don't know whether I was 18 or whether they just took me when I was 17, but it doesn't matter. I had to take the school bus to my army base, but first I was going to Mendocino to pick up my camera, which was in my locker. Before we left my mom reminded me to bring some reading material, and what I picked up was this brochure about a type of Mulino Bianco [a Barilla sub-brand that makes cookies and bread and other baked goods] cookies. We were driving along, and I was reading or something, not paying attention. Then we start to stop, but not in a normal way for a bus. The engine shut off but we kept moving forward, and kind of bobbing. I realised that we were floating. What the? That's not how you get to Mendocino! When we pulled up onto the beach and got out, my confustion only increased. Instead of being on, like, Big River beach or something, we were on this almost tropical looking Island. I say almost because there were white sand beaches, but the trees were closer to pines or redwoods than palm. One thing that definitely impressed me, though, was how saturated with colour the place was, like a travel brocure. The ocean was this incredibly deep turquoise aqua, and the trees were impossibly green. I soon came to realize, however, that everything was coated with a thin layer of ice. Not frozen into place, like some sort of deranged Snow Queen palace effect, but that kind of melty ice that you get in California. So was the sand, but not completely. I asked someone what was going on, and they were like, "maybe they want you to start your training here...as a suprise. Some sort of survival thing or something?" And that started freaking me out, 'cause was like, "NO! I have to get my camera!!" And then I "remembered" that we were going to stop at the Port of Versailles on the way, and this must be it. Note: Port of Versailles is where we stayed in Paris, and is nothing like the scene discribed above. Never the less, this calmed me down, as we were where we were supposed to be. Since the whole place was so icy, but looked so warm, I wondered what the water would be like, So I kneeled on the sand and put my arms in it. It wasn't too cold, but then my heavy backpack pushed me down and I started to slide, headfirst into the water!! That was scary! However, I was able to wrestle myself up again. Then the whole reality of signing up for the Army hit me, and I started major panicking. I couldn't shoot people!! Holy cow! What was I thinking?!?!?!?! Before I got too freaked out though, my cellphone went off [in real life] and woke me up. It was weird!!!

OK, gots to go to class now!

Not a soldier,
Bee Electric